I really confuse and very upset what is right and wrong . Jenny & Connie refused to apply for a maid quoting the excuses that they couldnt, however, MOM indicated that they could apply under as a sponsor. They didnt checked and accused me for not being helpful who wasnt in town for 10 days. My biggest mistake is to be busybody. Since they didnt want to apply for a maid , I have no choice to do so depsite my busy schedule. Fortunately, I have a understanding boss who allows me to settle my maid during office hours. Finally, I found a maid, and requested each person to fork out $5K for the deposit , Jenny and Connie started to question, since they have so much doubt, we didnt they search the maid themselves. They didnt want to do yet want to question. These are the sister that I have, who supported a maid that Lie ! Yet ! They dare to send nasty sms and displeasure to me . What have I done wrong . Being Busybody to show concern .

They always tell me to me to be magnanimous yet they can ! Sometime I am wondering I am too petty or they are ? ????? Are those buddha teaching that taught them as such ?

My lesson to learn; ignore, pretend, petty, oblivous, keep quite (even wrong or even mum upset), dont bother.

I felt rather sad to treat my mum as the stranger, but the pain that my family create to me is indefinite. Not that I dun want to express concern, not that I dun want to take care. Concern could only hurt myself deeper. After an heated argument with Jenny two night ago, I had an impulsive thought to move out immediately, suddenly realized that showing concern is wrong, to ensure mum to be well taken care is wrong, to ensure that her children to visit her is wrong. Irresponsible is correct. Even my mum couldn’t walk properly, could take care of herself, is not her children responsibility to take care, is my mum own responsibility to take care (which she does not have anymore). I starts to wonder what is going to happened if she is alone at home – fall down ? A stanger come ? Lunch ? sick ? who bring to visit doctor ?

All the while, I had assumed that what I have done was appreciated, utterly wrong, no , I was being framed as petty, narrow-minded , wanted to show off I am filial piety.

I understand that it is not being fair to my mum to oblivious with the any situation. Why else can I do ? What suggestion could I think of to avoid being hurt ? Even I talk nicely could turned to be screaming and yelling . Even I wanted my sister to show more concern to my mum turned out to be petty ? Even I always paid for meals during festive season is not appreciated ? Even I managed the maid turned out to be unreasonable request ? Even I worked more than 24 hrs a day or worked from 8 am to 1 am is not busier than those who can managed her own time .

What ever I do turned out to be wrong ? perhaps choose to fake ignorance is the best solution that I could think of.