I felt rather sad to treat my mum as the stranger, but the pain that my family create to me is indefinite. Not that I dun want to express concern, not that I dun want to take care. Concern could only hurt myself deeper. After an heated argument with Jenny two night ago, I had an impulsive thought to move out immediately, suddenly realized that showing concern is wrong, to ensure mum to be well taken care is wrong, to ensure that her children to visit her is wrong. Irresponsible is correct. Even my mum couldn’t walk properly, could take care of herself, is not her children responsibility to take care, is my mum own responsibility to take care (which she does not have anymore). I starts to wonder what is going to happened if she is alone at home – fall down ? A stanger come ? Lunch ? sick ? who bring to visit doctor ?

All the while, I had assumed that what I have done was appreciated, utterly wrong, no , I was being framed as petty, narrow-minded , wanted to show off I am filial piety.

I understand that it is not being fair to my mum to oblivious with the any situation. Why else can I do ? What suggestion could I think of to avoid being hurt ? Even I talk nicely could turned to be screaming and yelling . Even I wanted my sister to show more concern to my mum turned out to be petty ? Even I always paid for meals during festive season is not appreciated ? Even I managed the maid turned out to be unreasonable request ? Even I worked more than 24 hrs a day or worked from 8 am to 1 am is not busier than those who can managed her own time .

What ever I do turned out to be wrong ? perhaps choose to fake ignorance is the best solution that I could think of.